The purpose of this blog was to document my progress with Denali. Well, after two years not a lot of progress has been made.
Not going to lie, pretty frustrated with myself.
So, what now? I can either
A. Stop blogging about the same shit everyday....
B. Try to look at the little progress that we make as positive....
C. (enter choice for C here...I have no idea.)
Maybe I should make a blog "Sun n' Rain = Green, Green Grass." Not going to lie, my pasture looks pretty awesome! I just need to remember to take a picture!
Since April/May, what have I done? I have riding 3-4 days a week (minus the past few weeks, too busy with work) and have gotten over my fear of horses. Not going to lie, still get a little nervous when I get on a new horse, but I calm down pretty quickly. I am taking lessons with the trainer at my barn and with the trainer at the barn I work at. Ms. Slew? My heart drops to the floor and my pulse races. I think we need marriage counseling.
Why do I feel like I've not made as much progress? Still waiting to hear back from the Vet on her Reserpine/Ace thoughts? Which drug, oh which drug.... Ms. Slew needs to blow it out her butt, but she can't do that because she'll break. Sigh.
Blah. I'm in a shitty mood. As I write this one of the characters in my blogging life is moving barns (as in transit, or at least suppose to be.)Ophie and her mom are going to a dressage barn down south. Ophie is the only horse that Denali has ever liked and not tired to kill. Maybe she likes all Thoroughbred? I'll have to wait and see. I mapquested their new barn, 41 miles from my house, not exactly a drop in and visit barn, but then again I think I drive Ophie's mom nuts, so maybe that's good for her. ;0) Regardless, I will miss them.
I thought about moving barns a few times, and have made Pro and Con lists a ton of times. Long story short, I do like where we are, and the Pro list wins! Denali needs to be turned out for 8+ hours to be sane, not something I could find everywhere. We were at a barn where she didn't have much turn out: CRAZY MARE!!!
Yes, my trainer has frustrated me in the past, but I do really like her, the drive, the price, the people. Plus, if I can't vent here, where can I vent when she frustrates me? (Although, not going to lie, always nervous that she'll find this.)
A friend of mine told me that when I'm ready to move I'll know. I'm going to bet riding Denali will be a good step in deciding where I want to be. If we do move, it will be to Giant Warmblood Barn. I'm just excited that I've set up a weekly riding lesson at the Giant Warmblood Barn starting Thursday.
We've had a few people come look at our barn. I just want normal people with normal horses. I'm not going to lie, I'm the most anal person at our barn. I'll admit that. We were going to have another trainer come in, and she still might. I already told my trainer I don't want two cooks in the kitchen, and want her no where near my horse. I also told my trainer I pay her for her opinion, not for what she thinks other trainer's opinions should be. Things have gone well since that talk.
Is it October yet?? My life will be easier in October, oh so much easier! School schedule will be solidified, my pony should be allowed into a larger area (which means happier pony), I got a slight (very slight) raise, so I get to see how much that is a month (since we only get paid once a month.) I also took on two leadership roles at my school (those pay too,) I'm teaching after school classes (to put towards the saddle fund which I'm trying to start up again,) and my student teachers will have started. Oh so much easier in October (which is my favorite month!!) Can you tell I like to be busy?
I'm going to try to remember that I need to be grateful. Things I'm grateful for today: Pumpkin Spice Latte's, Apple Cider, and the smell of horses. What are you grateful for?
P.S. Pictures soon! I promise ;0)
Thanks for reading!