I came out of my hole, but saw my shadow, so no promises.
I fell a bit better today, and less like hosting a pity party. My mom actually made me feel good. We had a nice long talk about Denali. I expected her to freak out when I told her about my flying lesson (I failed to mention it to her last week.) I explained what happened and she asked me what I was going to do. Then she gave me one of her favorite quotes, "If you keep doing what you've always done, you're going to keep getting what you've always gotten." In this case, this is very true.
When Denali would be naughty with me at my barn, my trainer would take her from me. See the problem that I've developed? I' not going to push myself to ride her. It's not a big deal. I'm not afraid of her, but I do know that we need to get a better relationship. Now I just need a jet plane to get to the barn faster!
So back to my goals, and staying out of the hole for now. No promises on that one, work is crazy!
7 comments:
Glad your feeling better about your situation. Being positive can do wonders (or so I'm told).
Even just spending time grooming Denali and things like that can help improve your bond with her.
Yay I'm glad to see you're back. Love your artwork by the way. :D I'm glad your mom came through for you and made you feel better. I wish there was a way for you to get to the barn easier too. It would make things so much easier for you. I bet some Denali therapy will get you back to feeling good. :D
Ok, I love your picture, and boy do I identify with that feeling. We all have things that pile up on us; I'd like to crawl into a hole right to get away from this pain that just won't quit. I'm giving heaps of money to drs and still it haunts me, ugh!
We love our horses and our love goes so deep that when things get rough, they rend our hearts like nothing else. But I truly, honestly believe that if you start working in a focused manner with a trainer who is working with you AND Denali together, you are going to be able to step through that doorway into progress. Don't expect to be superhuman on your own, find a good person and let them help you put together a new plan.
Glad to hear you're not in your hole anymore.
Glad you came out of your goal *hugs* I'll admit that illustration cracked me up.
Great pic! glad to see you topside again.
Glad you're not in the hole! Keep trying and keep working. Get creative and hopefully something will click.
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