Friday, January 15, 2010

Urge

Every once in a while I've been getting the urge to ride. It only lasts for a few moments and the urge is always gone with fear taking over. It's so funny I think. I've ridden out her spooks, and they are nothing. I'm afraid It was actually a year ago that my horse obsession turned to fear. No amount of writing would explain how she acted. She was WILD, she was angry, and she was depressed. I had no excuse not to ride her so I did. The fear never went away, it would creep up at the most unexpected times. In the car on the way over, when she'd spook on the way into the barn, while lunging. Then I got hurt and I couldn't ride, hell for three weeks I couldn't even walk.



Lately, the urge has been happening, but it's different. I don't think I'm afraid anymore. When she freaks out on the lunge line I don't get mad or scared, I make her listen. Long story short, I am going to go out this weekend to ride my horse. I got this burning in my heart urge last night, but it was 9:30 and I know that going out to ride Denali at 9:30 would make her not very pleased. We'll see how it goes!!

Sorry for the lack of photos. My computer is at the shop and it's been gone for a week now. I miss my computer!! Actually, I was looking at my photos of Denali and noticed that I don't have any of me riding her.

Goal 1: Ride the horse

Goal 2: Have someone document riding the horse.

9 comments:

Bo Delmont said...

Best wishes; think positively, its all about the moment and being relaxed. Horses are body language readers and if you are tense about it; she will be to. If your confident, relaxed and ready to have a good time; she will too. The art and zen of riding rescue horses.

Best luck, have fun!

Denali said...

Thanks! I think that's been a huge part of it. I haven't been ready. I think I'm ready!! I hope I'm ready!!!

Denali said...

What's you blog??

Denali said...

and by you, i meant your.

The Gals on the Scale said...

Yay! So excited Brooke! Can't wait for you to get up on her. What day do you think you'll be going out? I was going to come by one (or both days) but I can stay away if you want to ride. Let me know. I think I am going to pop out tonight to ride for a bit. Have a good one!

Megan

Kristen Eleni Shellenbarger said...

Hey, good (actually great) for you!! It's tough to be a rider..I have that fear too sometimes..in fact, it's coming up in my blog soon. Those moments. That you realize..holy s*%t that could have been bad. But..we are daredevils? Sorta..lol!! I hope your ride goes beautifully!!!

Frizzle said...

Good for you -- go out and enjoy your horse! I'm sure you'll be glad that you did; and I'll bet Denali will be good since she has been getting ridden during your abscence. Let us know how it goes. :-D

Bo Delmont said...

I haven't been keeping up on my blog. When my horses were younger and fresh off the kill trucks it was much easier. Now everyone is happy, healthy and (somewhat) normal so there isn't really much to write about. Plus were in that training phase between dressage levels that isn't really exciting to write about. I'm not complaining tho; when there is no drama to blog about, life is good.

thenamesmarry said...

That's awesome! I hope it all goes well! It's a wonderful feeling when you satisfy your riding urge. If you ever need a documenter on a weekend, let me know, I want to come out and visit soon. Plus, I have my fair share of Bailey drama that we can talk about.

Also - fear is a part of riding, it's what keeps us from doing stupid things that we know we shouldn't. It's just a matter of finding the balance so that you can still enjoy your horse. Heck, I'm at the "stupid, risk-taking teenager" age, and I'm so safety conscious, I should be a senior citizen! Sometimes there's just those spooks you have to laugh off. Just have confidence in yourself and your riding ability, and have some fun!