Today was the first day that I got Denali from her stall that she was worked up. Who could blame her! We had blue bird skies today, warm weather, and not a cloud in the sky. It was a beautiful day! I didn't use the stud chain on her today because she's been so good. I opened her stall and got her halter on her. She was super hyper. Literally bouncing around, and making the funniest noise ever! She's not allowed to squeal, so I think that her little low pitch squeal was her attempt at expressing herself without getting into trouble. She bounced over to the little turn out area and didn't care as much about the grass as she had.
OMB (Ophie's Mom's Boyfriend) and I stood there and watched her. Then she tried to run. We both yelled, "NO" in unison and she stopped. Not saying she listened to us, but more likely she realized there was delicious grass to start consuming. I watched her for a little bit to make sure she wasn't going to be going crazy, and she didn't.
I rode my trainers horse today.It's been a while since my last time on a horse. I'm having a lesson tomorrow. I could tell how much I need to do in order to be able to ride. I have no muscles in my back, and very little everywhere else.
I keep going back and forth on if I should find Denali another home (my trainer had nothing to do with my thought process.) A home with someone who could use her to her full potential, but then I think that COULD be me. I also think, who in the heck would want a TB who cost it's previous owner THOUSANDS of dollars.
I wish that I had a straight answer. I stood in the field today with dead dandelions making wishes. "If I should keep Denali, I'll be able to blow off all the little wands." Well, then one or two would be left on the flower and I didn't like that answer. I think that what I need is to work with her everyday in order to figure out if we're going to work or not. Part of me doesn't (for a million obvious reasons) to get rid of her. I want her to grow old with me, but then the other part of me wonders if she'll ever calm down enough for me to feel comfortable to ride her. I think we both need work, and I shouldn't just do something on a whim. That's how I got her to begin with. When I ride Denali I get off feeling better than I feel after riding any horse. I think that's because she's mine. I don't know. I'm rambling... I love her. I don't feel the way I feel about Denali about any other horse. I think it would be easier if she showed affection to me.
This will be a much easier decision to make once I'm in shape. Much, much easier. I guess I get frustrated going to the barn and riding another horse. I want to ride my horse!!
I start my 5:50 am pilates class this week!! Ugh. It will be worth it right!?